I signed up to do this right?
I want to do this.... yes I do.
I. WILL. do. this.
But still I am scared - scared of failing mostly. Though, I cant truly fail unless I quit, can I? I mean, every step towards this goal is a step towards a healthier, stronger, happier me. I am taking care of my mind and body; strengthening my willpower and determination. I am guessing remembering why I am doing this, is going to be very important during the next few months! I mean on those 3 hour bike rides and long runs and swims I will likely ask "so why did I sign up for this anyway." I better have an answer. My answer is really, that I want to do it for myself. I want to be pushed (This is true no matter what I actually say during a workout.) to see what I am capable of doing. I was made for more than just mere survival in this world. I want to see what I can do and I am pretty sure I will surprise myself along the way.
All this reflecting has made me think of my friend Maura. She is truly an inspiration. This summer, after being sick the week before, she completed her 70.3 and allowed me to walk the last 5 miles of the run with her to the finishline. She was the last participant to complete the race that day. Her grit and determination to go the distance (even when they were picking up the race cones behind us as we walked) was/is truly inspiring. I cried at the end.
Although, I hope I am not the last finisher, I know that if I am, it will still be worth it all in the end. I can only pray that I can inspire someone else, as Maura (and others) have inspired me.
With proper training and the support of those we love, we can do this... what we have set our minds to. KC and I have a plaque in our living room that says "Believe you can and you are halfway there." So here's to believing (and training like we do!).
Goggles On!
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